Someone I used to know told me that Love and Hate were just different sides of the same coin. The opposite of love isn’t hate, but indifference. When I think about the people I hate, it made sense that they were people that I used to love.
I hate holding grudges. I hate triggering negative feelings by hearing a name or a sound, or smelling a familiar scent. I know it’s unavoidable and there are always going to be people I hate, but I’m just so vulnerable to the idea that I can somehow fix or reverse the hurt they’ve inflicted on me.
I think I just need to accept that there are some things that I’m never going to fully heal from and that it’s alright. Not everything needs fixing; I just need to learn how to deal with my emotions, take my past and learn from it.
It’s been a hot minute since I last blogged! I’ve been so busy since I’ve started going back to work and I haven’t had the time and energy to just sit in front of my laptop and type away about my day. It’s just really funny that I went from blogging almost every single day during Circuit Breaker to blogging once every 2 to 3 months.
Continue reading “Hiatus”
I had such a pleasant ride to work this morning!
Continue reading “Hitch”
I was me but in a different body. (A dream, but still worth a TW: sexual themes, sexual assault)
Continue reading “Body”
I feel different. It’s a good different.
Continue reading “Intention”
As you all know, despite trying my best to make the most out of my time during the Circuit Breaker (a.k.a our quarantine for my non-local readers) it really sucked for me!
Continue reading “T-4 Days”
The past week had me realising that most of my close friends’ birthdays are in June and it includes mom and James too! A tough time for my wallet, indeed haha!
Continue reading “Birthdays”
You would call it the end of the night. When everyone’s passed out from the alcohol, coming down from a high or fast asleep from the exhaustion of partying all night.
Continue reading “Somebody Else”
I fell in love with a wanted criminal. We stood outside a hotel as we said what may have been our final goodbyes.
Continue reading “Kitten”
Damn, I was almost done with posting every single day for this Circuit Breaker and I couldn’t even do that!
Anyways, I stopped at Tuesday last week. Since then, a lot has happened, not just in my personal life but all over the world.
Continue reading “Day 49 to 56 – END”